I'm depressed. Not just sad, but on medication depressed. Clinical Depression, as its called. Anyway, this past week has been really bad in the way of my feelings...
My doctor's appointment didn't go well. I was hopeing to start getting on disabilility, but the nurse practicioner didn't feel qualified to start me on that. And my mom says that I shouldn't get my hopes up on getting on disability. The problem is I already got my hopes up and now they've been crushed. I feel stuck, like i'm going to be in pain the rest of my life, with no money and nothing to show for it.
I'm 22, almost 23 and I'm still living at home with my parents because I'm so pathetic I cant get a job that pays me more the $100 a month. I cant even pay my parents all the rent I owe them. I feel useless, a just a thing taking up space, helping no one.
That's all I have today.
I had this awesome comment, about how great you are, and how much you're parents love you, and everything. But it got deleted, and now I'm not an awesome commentator and can't remember what I said. All I know is that, you, are awesome. You're parents love you, and never feel as though you are useless, they feel useless because as parents we feel that we should build our children up so that they can fly on their own, and if they can't, it doesn't matter the reason why, it's our fault. Not yours. You are perfect on your own.
ReplyDeleteDon't feel useless Mom, you know I've got problems only medication and/or therapy can help.
DeleteJust knowing that you understand a lot of the things that I feel helps me. I hope your sad times get happier. ( I know, I'm crap at encouraging comments.)
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